THING after ONE thing...

Well this 30 December I got Mas vs Sin tournament and tomorrow I got training for 3 days.

NJCC.... I got 5.5 and 7 placing well kinda good lalala
hurm... I ate lot in past few days so I need to make up with it....
so after this I need to diet more tightly....

LIFE LIVE (PENINDASAN) Oppression,Suppressed

Well as we can see there is a lot of "penindasan" in this world

"Human can't run from be a penindas or ditindas"

HURMM....all my memories come back and stay fresh.... its very a bad memories...
I don't really want to remember it but this thing that happen toward suju at GDA make me remember it....
All I can see is sadness inside them....
Just like DEJAVU I'm feel like watching my own self inside them and I practically know how they feel... It so much hurt until you can't even mutter a word because each word that come from your mouth is just feel like a lava .....

I really truly feel the hurt because I'm once felt it ... and it hurt a lot more than anybody could understand..... Imagine the effort you made in so many years to achieve it become worthless at once... that just break your heart into pieces and that heart of yours would never ever be attach back perfectly.... Nobody know the feel accept they have gone through it.....

my self at that time is so crumble and I cry for hours and the next day and the next days....
I never know that this thing could happen toward my "Heenim"

So I hope they stay strong with me and fight ours ways back and rise....

"Heroes rise, Heroes falls"
"Once again, WIN it all"
.....

THE MALL

Well nothing in my head right now.But there is something interesting about the title kekeke....
I have a chess training with har-har-leave kekeke....
hurmm I felt NERVOUS because my level seem decreasing but I have train bit lately so its not so bad.


So today is the first day after long......... time I eat a full meal of nasi.....
OOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH what a happy day.........

Then I made some special thing for mimi......
I ask greg what about mimi is she playing????
so before all this greg thought mimi cant play hahahha
but... I tell greg mimi got 2 years more to play national junior
hahahah kekekkeek

GOAL FOR NEXT YEAR

Well I have think this matter for awhile now. Seriously I have been try to find a best goal for my self, so what I found is that I MUST DISCIPLINE, MUST HAVE GREAT AFFORD TO ACHIEVE, WELL this is really cliche phrase or good word that you heard everywhere when you search for advice. Too me this is really an easy word but hard to realizing it.So that's why I choose it as my goal.....
that all for now....

this world is tear appart hahhaha

wEIRD THing HaPpEN

YOU AND I SEE DIFFERENT WORLDS
WE VIEW THINGS THROUGH DIFFERENT EYES
WE LIVE ON DIFFERENT PLANETS

LEARNIG process

Well this all happening in step. Now I'm doing exercise regularly like everyday and i5t very fun hahaha. But all we know that if we want to achieve something we need to work hard to it. I THINK I have many thing that I want to do.

"forget the past"
"don think bout future"
"think and remember what you want now"

hehe this is the thing that I learn recently....
well at least I learn new thing ....

haha this thing that I going to write bout is ....
haha it's so so funny.......... its bout my komsas book...
this is really really opposite from my dictionary...
it about..... hahahahhah ...................................

"Dibawah Langit Sama"

huhh finally I write it .... well nothing much inside this"sajak"..
as it title said all bout the langit yg sama la.... hahahha

so this all I want to write bye bye I need to do my chores ....

School Holiday

Hurm...... long time I dint write here so just want to say "I BACK"


Well I got no idea to write so let just write bout the past day of my life .... Now I want to tell that i feel so much stress . Because something ...!!! Well forget it now let me write about my diet system . I manage to not taken rice in 4 days . fuhhhh That a lot of effort that i put in too . So the little problem is that I cant wake up in early. so i think that after this i need to discipline my self a lot more .

WATER

After 3 days without water in my home i came back to my house and there a lot of water but there is a lot of argument...

3 day"s

we stay in prescott hotel and we eat around there la near maju junction and sogo kekeke.
go to chung kok with the chess set that come from complex wilayah. im so glad that i get the nice chess set back kekeke.Now i have three singlet that same type lol. And last night i cant sleep because i got diarrhea kekeke.

National Rapid Chess Championship

It was a trip to UTP for 3 day 2 night. it was tiring but fun. well there is people coming with us too so it merryier and good. that not all we got our room locked up in the morning and cant go for the morning game it was kinda bad but later in some round i got to meet with that person back and i win him kekeke.... so now its about 2:11 in the morning i i going to sleep ...(tomorow is going to be a busy days!!!?)

TIME

well i have finish wash my cloth for daily life but i just wash my school uniform ....
lol so much cloth to wash with hand la.... but whatever la and the worst thing is i havent dont any exercise in these week that was bad la... maybe because i attended the school for 4 days after a long time hahaha.... and now my work is piling up so tiring and bored i hope i can do all my goal in this years ...... god please help me ....

WHAT HAPPENED

why you behave like this toward me . It make me confused , I will remember it and try to avoide hurting you.

BETTING

"NEVER ADMIT DEFEAT"


I think this phrase is quite good to give people encouragement in a lot ways as it is.....
because I once hear this word somewhere and now I realize it by using it on my-self.

If only I can use this phrase in my chess game it must be a very good for me.....
sometimes people need to keep fighthing till the end of everything .......
but me myself hard to keep it to myself kekeke....

p/s:today i won bet with mimi to have a kenny rogers...
kekeke

2010 RAYA PLANING

I dunno what to expect when my mum tell me that we a going to "balik kampung" and we gonna arrive back k.l. at friday and there is a about a week we need to spent at kampung..... T-T why mummy why .....

all of this beacause of that annoy boy what so ever......

No pain no gain, no thorn no throne, no gall no glory.

actually it quite late that i realize this but it really change my heart today where i watch video that really call my soul to make a move it was really heart touching until there is no tears that willing to came out . sometimes i know that in this world there is nothing that came free and it make me really sad and what i know now is i need to change but i know it quite late but i really want to change myself to be a better person inside out. hope that Allah help me to change to a better person not just became more pretty and stuff but to become more good kind smart clever and all kind of thing ...... i never taught that i was really far from my track but now i know that if myself dint wake up and fight who else going to fight for me and how is my future if i always playing and dint think about the future but keep on dreaming that one day i going to be somebody but dint make an effort to achieve it. so i will make my self a better person from now on...

Holiday And Homework

so long that i had write my blog.this time i want to share my past few day . it was last friday i go to the ocm there is a venue about the president and penyampaian bendera. that is last friday and today is thursday there is khatam al-quran and i did not know how to read in jawi so there is some of my friend actually i think she quiet concern about me she teach me jawi and i a little bit move by that. hurm..... before that some of my classmate come to me and said after raya must come to school about two week full attendance well that quiet move me a bit lol...

after school i go to chungkok then go buka puasa with mummy and gary .

STRESS

homework .......
there is a lot of them ... it was to much .... it like almost all my subject got homework ......
but i dunno where to start already

whatever pun i just upload my mp3 with new song..... 1.destiny,2.rokkugo......

THING THAT SHOULD BE DONE

After a day that I lost my purse I make a schedule to corrected myself. Until today I still did not follow my own schedule that I make by my own. NOW is the right time for me to start a new.

1. Wake-up at 5am and breakfast.
2. Iron cloth,packing bag and clean the room.
3. Take a bath and get ready to school.(7am)
4. Sit and pay attention to the teacher.
5. Go to the library, wait for mimi.
6. Arrive at home, make hot drink then put bag at a proper place.Bring pail and toiletries to the toilet and take bath.
7. Hang the laundries, changed to comfortable cloth and take lunch.
8. Do school work.
9. Open computer(1-2 hours).weekend can spend more time with the computer.
10. Start chess revision if no schoolwork left,help doing the house chores after that pick-up the laundries lastly iron them.
11. Buy diner if needed. (take oat sometimes as diner)
12. Take bath and do a little revision. At least sleep at 12 am
    

WEEKEND

1. Clean-up the house,throw rubbish and buy breakfast. (take bath before buy breakfast)
2. Chess Revision, studies.
3. EXERCISE my body in the house.
4. Wash school shoe.

Well this is the thing that I prepare to start a new me.....
but I dint follow even one from this list,so i thing in his holy month I will follow this little by little....

NO OTHER.......

MY LIFE IN PUASA TIME

WELL I KNOW THAT THIS IS QUITE LATE TOO WRITE ABOUT,
First day of puasa I feel really hungry so I JUST WATCHING youtube haha...

Second day of puasa I accompany my big sister to her chess class at SJK(C) chung kwok....
damn tired... and we barely managed to "berbuka puasa " at home....

TARGET "RAYA"

1. TOUCH YOUR TOES
2. 20 KG DEDUCTION
3. EXCELLENT RESULT
   

ONE WORD

MEMORIES

it takes forever for me to write a new entries here. it really hard for me to take time to write in here. well tonight i still doesnt know what to write in here. well as always i like to express my feeling .that day i cry everything inside me when i hear my favourite song.
ONE WORD really decribed everything in my world. after that incidence i bought a new purse. but nothing can change my feeling toward my first purse that i buy with my own money. so everything is possible for me to forget it....
in NO OTHER way i really miss it..
well after many incident , i miss my mbskl tournament this year.n it really hurt me when i know it over that night. i dint think my mum wrong, but at least tell me... why it is hard right for wasnt it.
so now is august already, and i dint even accomplish a lot of my gol. well now i need to try bit by bit by bit to my gol . so until my gol achieve i gonna keep my heart strong so that i would never cry anymore.......

HIKMAH

18 JULY 2010 ADALAH TIGA HARI SELEPAS AKU PULANG DARI BEIJING. INI JUGA MERUPAKAN KALI PERTAMA AKU MENULIS BLOG INI DALAM BAHASA MALAYSIA . MUNGKIN AKU SUDAH TIDAK MAMPU UNTUK MENULIS DALAM BAHASA ENGLISH LAGI....... DI BEIJING AKU KEHILANGAN PURSE AKU YANG TELAH AKU GUNA SELAMA 4 TAHUN. SEJAK 2007 - 2010 JULY12 MUNGKIN INI SEMUA MERUPAKAN HIKMAH PADA DIRI KU. APA MUNGKIN INI SATU BALASAN ATAU PUN SATU KEBETULAN ATAU PUN TAKDIR TUHAN BAHAWA PURSE ITU HILANG DI BEIJING(BIRD NEST STADIUM) AKU TERLALU MENGEJARNYA DAN KINI KU KEHILANGAN MU. AKU BERHARAP KAU BAHAGIA DISANA TANPA AKU. KINI AKU MULA CUBA MENERIMA KEHILANGAN MU MALAHAN AKU MENYEDARI BAHAWA KAU SUDAH TIADA LAGI DI SISI KU KAU SUDAH JAUH DARI PADA KU . DULU AKU TIDAK DAPAT MENERIMA HAKIKAT YANG DIKAU SUDAH TIADA LAGI.WALAU APA PUN BERLAKU MESKI PUN NANTI KAU AKAN ADA PENGGANTI AKU AKAN TETAP MENGIGATI MU DALAM KOTAK FIKIRAN KU INI . KAU PERGI MENINGAL KAN SERPIHAN DIRI MU UNTUK KU MENGINGATI MU BUKAN..... AKU BERASA SEPERTI MIMPI DI SIANG HARI.AKU TIDAK SANGKA AKAN KEHILANGAN DIRU MU..... DISINI AKU MENGUCAPKAN SELAMAT TINGGAL BUAT DIRIMU WAHAI SAHABAT KU YANG AKU PERCAYAI DENGAN SEPENUH JIWA KU. MUNGKINKAH ADA HIKMAH DI SEBALIK KEHILANGAN MU INI ....... HANYA ALLAH YANG TAHU......

just come home

FUUHHHHHH.... SO TIRED LA..... I SPEND MY TWO WEEK HOLIDAY WITH CHESS ...... TOMORROW NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL .....WHY OH WHY I HAVE TO SPEND MY NICE TWO WEEK HOLIDAY WITH TWO CHESS COMPETITION. 1.MSSM 2. NATIONAL CLOSE SO DAMN EXHAUSTED .OKAY ALL MY MSSM FRIEND ALREADY WRITE THEIR NOTE ABOUT MSSM . SO NOW IT MY TURN TO WRITE SOMETHING ...

MSSM. 5 JUNE 2010

I WAKE UP A BIT LATE . GO TO AMPANG PARK BY LRT. ARRIVE AT THE KOPITIAM. ORDER SOMETHING EXTRA. THEN I COME LATE FOR THE DEPARTURE TIME .I MISS SO MUCH FUN I GUESS. THEIR CAPTURE PICTURE OF THEIR SPORT SHOE AND IM NOT THERE.SO DAMN NOT LUCKY...
THEN GET IN TO THE BUS.I SIT AT THE FRONT AND ALL MY FRIEND SIT AT THE BACK WITH ALL THE GUYS.SO LUCKY ME I DINT GO WITH THEM. AND WE START OUR LONG LONG JOURNEY.SO DAMN BORED . BUT IN THE BUS I PLAY SPELLING BEE WITH JOYCE AND NATASHA SO DAMN FUNNY.... WELL BEFORE THAT THERE WAS ONE JOKE LA....START WITH I HAVE A LONG FINGER NAIL ,THEN I SAID MY FINGER NAIL NOT SHORT , THEN SHE SHOW HER FINGER NAIL AND SAID 'SEE NO FINGER NAIL....' SO I SAID.....'WHAT! NO FINGER NAIL, YOU ALIEN OR HUMAN??' SO WE THREE LAUGH LIKE HELL... SO THAT ALL UNTIL WE ARRIVE PERLIS AFTER ABOUT 11 HOUR IN THE BUS SO TIRED MAN....THEN WE GO EAT THEN GO TO THE RESORT WITH NO SIGN OF PEACE.... WHAT TO DO WE ALL KNOW THAT WE GOING TO STAY THERE 7 MORE DAY BUT TOGETHER WE UNITE......

MSSM 6 JUNE 2010

WAKE UP A BIT EARLY..... GO TO GUA KELAM NOTHING INTERESTING UNTIL I SAW 1 LITTLE WEIRD INSECT OR BUG OR CENTIPED OR ANYTHING LA.... IT WAS ALL BLACK IN COLOR BUT AT THE END IT GOT A LITTLE WHITE FUR ... VERY SCARY .....AND THEN WE GO BACK TO REGISTER PLACE.... I SAW SO MANY PERSON........(LOL.ROFL.LMAO) SO THEN WE GO TO LUNCH PLACE THAT STINK LIKE ROTTEN FISH OR SOMETHING E.C.T..DINER BEEN PACK BY TEACHER THEN FORGOT TO TAKE SPOON...

MSSM 7 JUNE 2010

WEAR FULL OUTFIT FROM HEAD TO TOE... THEN WE GO LATE TO THE HALL SO WE NEED TO SHARE SIT WITH EVERYONE DAMN CROWDED...... LUCKLY IM FAT SO CAN NOT SHARE SIT WITH ME LA..... THEN START ROUND ONE AT THE AFTERNOON. WE WON KEDAH 4-O. THEN GO OUT SIT WITH MY TEAM..... FAIZAL ACT GAY WITH SHAWN . 'LA GURAU JE' FAIZAL SAID THIS TO SHAWN WITH ACT TOUCHING SHAWN CHEEK . EATING ALONE DINER.......... GO BACK SLEEP DIN'T BATH.......

MSSM 8 JUNE 2010

THIS DAY WAS MY DOOMSDAY I LOST TWO POINT STRAIGHT WITH SARAWAK AND SELANGOR BADLY..... THEN SUHAIRI said 'when i play AT K.L. I PLAY LIKE A TIGER WHEN I WAS THERE I PLAY LIKE A HAMSTER....... SO I WAS SO UPSAD WITH WHAT HE HAS SAID TO ME SO I WAS SO MOODY..... THEN TAKE DINER EATING 'NASI GOREND PATAYA' . THEN NATASHA WAS SICK THEN AFIZAN GAVE HER TWO PANADOL ACTIV FAST SO SHE ATE IT THEN TROW OUT AT THE BUS BESIDE JOYCE... OOPPSS... I FORGOT ONE THING ..... BEFORE THAT NATASHA WAS SPEAKING WITH HER MOM THEN SHE WAS CRYING SO I THOUGHT SHE WAS SICK AND THEN I CALL OUT THE TEACHER SO THEN THAT THE STORY THE AFIZAN GAVE THE THING. THEN NOW GO HOME AND HAVE TRAINING A LITTLE THEN GO TO SLEEP WITHOUT BATHING FIRST .....

MSSM 9 JUNE 2010(MY BIRTHDAY)

WAKE UP IN THE MORNING GO BATH WITH A MOODY MOOD THAT I MUST WIN THE NEXT ROUND SO I WAS SO MUCH STRESS ........ THEN TAKE BREAKFAST.... WITH MOODY FACES..... THEN THE PLOT RISING AT THE TIME.... I WAS WALKING UP TO THE BUS THEN THIS PERSON SHOW UP... TRYING TO GIVE ME SUPPORT(SHOW HAND SIGN LIKE MALAYSIA BOLEH HAND SIGN) SO I WAS FEEL LIKE OKAY A BIT LA ....... THEN KAI WEN MY FRIEND @ THE CAPTAIN COME TO ME AND SIT BESIDE ME AND GAVE A (VERY GOOD WORD) ADVICES ..."WE CAME HERE TO WIN,NOT,NEED WIN".. IT MAKE ME WAKE FROM MY LONG SLEEP... THANKS KAI WEN....... SO I WON THIS DAY GAME WITH PRIDE......
AFTER THAT WE GO TO PADANG BESAR AND DO A LITTLE SHOPPING . I BOUGHT A VERY BIG TEDDY THAT I NAME IT KEZ AS MY SPECIAL NICKNAME THAT I GAVE TO MY SELF WHEN I FIRST PLAY DRAGON FABLE .THEN BUY SOME VERY BEAUTIFUL(CHEAP MAN ONLY RM 1 EACH) KEYCHAIN. WHILE WE WALKING AROUND THE PADANG BESAR WE ENCOUNTERS WITH SOMEBODY .... SO TENSION BECAUSE I WAS BRINGING ALONG WITH ME A VERY BIG BLACK PLASTIC BAG..... SO THERE IS ONE GUY(GUO JIE) ASK ME "WHAT THE THING THAT YOU HOLD" SO I WAS DAMN SHOCK THEN I JUST SAID I WONT ANSWER... THEN WE GO BACK THEN WE GO TO NIGHT TRAINING THEN I SAW BLUE TURTLE , I THOUGHT IT WAS HARLIEFF 'S SO I WAS LIKE OOOO HARLIEFF LIKE SOFT TOY....... THEN SUDENLY ALL OF THEM SING A HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG THEN THEY GAVE ME THAT THING LOL...... SO THAT DAY WAS A HAPPY ENDING DAY LOL......

MSSM 10 JUNE 2010 (OLIVIA BIRTHDAY)

THIS DAY I DID NOT REMEMBER MUCH BUT MY TEAM WON 2.5-1.5 WITH PENANG THEN WE DREW WITH JOHOR BECAUSE MY TEAMATE WIN AND DRAW BUT I LOST . SO AT THE NIGHT , WE GO TO THE NIGHT TRAINING AFTER THAT OLIVIA MUM BRING CAKE THEN I AND HER BLOW THE CAKE TOGETHER. SO THAN GO TO SLEEP...... AND STILL DID NOT BATH.....

MSSM 11 JUNE 2010

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF MSSM AND THE LAST ROUND FOR US...... WE ALL FEEL VERY GLAD IT GOING TO FINISH AND WE CAN GO BACK..... BUT THEN WE ALL REALIZE THAT AFTER THIS WE HARDLY CAN SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN........ WELL WE DID WELL BY BEAT NEGERI SEMBILAN 4-0 HA....HA..... BUTV WHAT CAN WE DO WE STILL IN THE 2 PLACE .
BECAUSE ALL OF US DINT PERFORM SO WELL SO WE LOST BY TIE BREAK IN MATCH POINT ..... AND THEN WE ALL GO TO ARAU TO THE PRIZING CEREMONY .... IM QUITE HAPPY AT THE FIRST BECAUSE THE D.J. DONE QUITE WELL TO CHEER US UP..... BUT THEN THE PRIZING CEREMONY FOR CHAMPION ARISE SO I FEEL LITTLE BIT DEPRESSED BECAUSE I WATCH ALL OF THEMTAKING THE GOLD MEDAL...... SO I ACT A LITTLE BIT WEIRD.......(SING ALONG WITH THE SONG THAT I HEAR..... ELLA SONG) SO AT THE NIGHT WE GO TO SOME PLACE TO EAT AND THIS UNCLE WAS SO SO KECOHLA..... BECAUSE WE A LITTLE BIT NOISY HE COME TO ME AND SAID JGN BISING SANGAT ADE BABY.. SO WE JUST IGNORED.......SO AT THE END OF THE NIGHT THERE IS ROBBER TAKE ....................... AND THEY RUNAWAY LIKE A CHICKEN SHOUTING THERE ROBBER X3 LOL....... SO WE WAS FREAK OUT LA THEN I CHANGE TO PAVI HOUSE BECAUSE HUI SAN AND YUN HUI NO HOUSE ALREADY......... SO AT THE END I END UP WITH GOSSIPING WITH PAVI AND JOYCE.....SO FUNNY WE TALK ABOUT .... THEN I BECOME CRAZY WITH QUOTE...... SO FUNNY ..... SLEEP WITHOUT BATHING .

MSSM 12 JUNE 2010

WAKE UP EARLY AND BE THE FIRST TO BATH .THEN DRY MY HAIR WITH TOWEL BECAUSE NO KAI WEN HAIRDRYER .THEN WE GO WAQLK TO THE TAMAN ULAR BECAUSE THE BUS DRIVER STILL SLEEP..... BUT WE END UP BREAKFAST AT THE STALL NEAR THE TAMAN ULAR . AND WE DID NOT GO THE TAMAN ULAR AND WE WAIT AT THE HALL THAT WE ALWAYS TRAINING AT NIGHT . SO AFTER LONG TI9ME WAITING THE BUS DRIVER WAKE ALREADY HE DRIVE SO FAST LA..... THEN IN THE BUS A LOT OF THEM NOTICES THIS BIG BAG AND ASK ME LOL ...... SO AT THE END I GO BACK

CONCLUSION:I DINT BATH AT THE NIGHT!!!

9 JUNE 2010

well today is my birthday. on this day it was so gloomy in the morning but it lighten up hour by hour... on this day i buy a very big teddy later i put up it.this day also i receive a turtle. a blue turtle from all of my friend . and i receive ............... from my........


lol.....

MSSM AND FACEBOOK

as you can see the tittle mssm and facebook that keep our relationship stay connect ..
and now i regret my self because i delete my facebook...
well i know that what i feel now everybody can feel it ..
but im glad that i can use my sister facebook
and this blog be my diary because now i was at outside of the house .,
so my diary was keep at my house so what i have now is just this petty blog....

after mssm

feel so tired but miss my time there so much .. there one little small hope in my heart that even thought we was apart ..hope that one tiny bit of myself they will remember ...lol....

secret

i do not have any idea to write ... maybe because i have to much to say

today i realise that i have done something really stupid...
huuh... why why why i wrote something like that and keep it at stupid place...
well i thought that place was so safe that no one can find out..
arrrrrrrrrgggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so stupid....

arrogant person

I DO NOT KNOW WHY SHE THINK OF HER SELF IS HIGH AND MIGHTY LA...
SHE THINK SHE SO GOOD LA...
WHAT THE HECK LA....
GO DIE LA....

Latihan Pusat di SETAPAK IN DAH PRIMARY SCHOOL(SERI MELATI)

Bring a lot of memory back to my head..
so happy that i can even feel sad ...
hope that this feeling did not fade away ..

TRACK

KEEP ON YOUR TRACK ALWAYS....
IF YOU SLIGHTLY MISS YOUR OWN TRACK
FASTER KEEP BACK ON YOUR TRACK....



IF YOU CAN NOT DO MUCH ..
DO LITTLE BY LITTLE..
BECAUSE YOU WILL LEARN ..
FROM DOING LITTLE..
TO DO A BIGGER THING ..
EVERYBODY LEARN BIT BY BIT...
SLOWLY STEPPING TO A HIGHER LEVEL..
DO NOT SAY YOU DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO ..
BECAUSE EVERYONE HAS A THING THAT THEY NEED TO DO..

RAINING

REALISE OR CLOSE YOUR EYES THAT IS THE CHOICE THAT I HAVE EVERYDAY IN MY LIFE. SOMETIMES WHAT I MAKE IS JUST WAIT THE DAY TO END.BUT AT THE END I THE ONE WHO REGRET.NOW WHAT I KNOW IS TO MAKE THE DECISION AND BE REALISTIC WITH ALL STRENGTH I HAVE.BECAUSE STRENGTH IS NOT SOMETHING YOU GAIN FROM SOMEONE.SO I THINK I WILL MAKE IT CLEAR FOR MYSELF THAT I NEED TO MAKE THE CHOICE BY CHOOSING TO REALISE THE SITUATION ..

BELIEVE YOU AND ME

IS IT SO HARD TO BELIEVE PEOPLE .WELL IT HAPPEN BECAUSE A LOT OF PEOPLE IS BEEN LIED TO PEOPLE WHO THRUST THEM . MAYBE THEY THING LIE IS JUST A LIE BUT YOUR LIE CAN HURT MANY PEOPLE AROUND YOURSELF AND WHY YOU STILL WANT TO LIE. I KNOW THAT PEOPLE AROUND OUR SELF WANT TO LIE TO US BECAUSE WE OUR SELF DID NOT BE HONEST TO OUR OWN SELF . IT REALLY HARD TOBE HONEST TO YOUR OWN SELF SO IT MUST BE VERY HARD ALSO TO BE HONEST TO PEOPLE AROUND YOU SO WHAT I KNOW NOW IS DO NOT JUDGE PEOPLE EASILY BY THEIR COVER OR THEIR SKIN. I REALLY RECALL MY OWN BEHAVIOR.WHY I CANNOT BEHAVE BETTER.WHY I CAN NOT BE A BETTER PERSON. WHY THAT I HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS . SO WHAT I NEED NOW IS TO TRY TO ACCEPT THE FACT AND TRY TO CHANGE THE FACT AND CONTINUE LIVING PEACEFULLY.

PEOPLE TEND TO RELEASE THEIR ANGER TOWARD SOMEONE ELSE

WHAT THE BIG DEAL JUST GO AND SLAP THAT PUNK IN THE FACE DUDE ... YOU ARE A COWARD!!!!

TIME THAT WE HAVE

WE ALWAYS THINK THERE IS ALWAYS TIME FOR US TO PLAY OR DO ANYTHING THAT WE WANT ... BUT YOU KNOW THAT TIME DID NOT WAIT FOR USWE THE ONE WHO SHOULD CHASE THE TIME.....

REALITY OR FANTASY

I DONT HAVE ANY IDEA TODAY SO LETS JUST TALK ABOUT REALITY AND FANTASY .
SO AS ALL WE KNOW THAT REALITY IS BITTER THAN FANTASY.... BUT FANTASY IS SWEETER BUT NOT A REALITY...... SO WHY WE NEED TO BELIEVE IN THE FANTASY BECAUSE ALL WE HAVE TO BELIEVE IS THERE IT WAS REALITY





P/S:CHESS IS REALITY NOT FANTASY!!!!

SHOUTING

TODAY IT WAS STRESSFUL....

1. WAKE UP LATE.
2. HAIR WET NOT DRY
3. ENTER GATE SAW HECK
   
4. GOT 4 FOR 2010
   
5. GO HOME WRITE BLOG
6. GO CHUNGKOK WITH WET HAIR
7. RAINNY DAY
   
8. MY 4 CERT GOT SMASH
9. SHOUTING IN CLASS LIKE HELL
10. GO HOME.........
    

NOW AND THEN

WE JUST BE OBEDIENT WITH ALL THIS..
WE JUST BE NICE WITH ALL OF THEM..
WE JUST BEAR WITH THE JOB..
WE JUST FACE IT WITH ALL WE HAVE...

MSSMWP

Today is last day mssmwp 2010 so the result was unbelievable i was 4 placing with 5.5 point it was so frustating ..... like hell im feel so damn down with this so ...l.dunno what to said la it was all my fault.....

SIGN FROM GOD

IT WAS WEIRD BUT FORTUNATE THAT MY MEMORY
(CHESS BOOK FROM PREVIOUS MSSMKL TRAINING)HAS BEEN WASHED BY HOLY WATER(WATER INSIDE THE BASIN THAT I WASHED MY CLOTH)

WELL FIRST I THOUGHT THAT I SHOULD RESPOND WITH SAD RESPOND BUT SOON I REALIZE THAT IT IS NOT THE MATTER THAT I SHOULD BE SAD ABOUT.

THEN I HAPPY THAT MY MEMORY IS BEING WASHED OUT.......

HERE IS A LITTLE ADVISE FOR MY SELF .....
"APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE NOW "
"REMEMBER WHAT YOU HAVE BEFORE"
"BUT YOU HAVE TO PUT BOUNDARIES BETWEEN NOW AND THEN"
"MAYBE YOU WOULD LOST BOTH OF THEM IF YOU MISS SINGLE SECOND"

THROW

THROWING THING YOU TREASURE THE MOST MAYBE HARD.BUT I THINK YOU HAVE TOO.SO TODAY I THINK I WILL NEED TO THROW ONE MORE THING THAT I LOVE SO MUCH WELL IT NOT THAT THIS THE FIRST TIME I DID THIS SO I WILL NOT FEEL SO MUCH BURDEN BY IT .I THINK SO .
BY THE WAY, BEFORE THIS I THROW THE FIRST THING THAT I BUY WITH MY DESIRE WITH JUST A SPLIT SECOND.SO THIS NOT GOING TO BE THE SADDEST THING LA...
SO WHAT I GOING TO THROW THIS TIME IS MY FAVORITE MANGA READING HABIT.....



SO TODAY IS THE GOOD BYE TO ONE MANGA...
SEE YOU SOON....

it was really sad if u lost your precious "something".......
well it's not that people wont felt sad ....
but let me tell this when you lost something that really important to you.you will fell this whole world against you will......

HURM.....
IT START WITH LITTLE BORED DAY ENDED UP IN A VERY BRIGHT DAY HAHA...
WELL IN THE MORNING AS USUAL I THOUGHT TO HAVE MY BREAKFAST WITH SOMETHING LIKE CEREAL BUT IT ENDED UP I HAVE INTERNET FOR IT HAHA...
SO IT CONTINUES..WITH SOMETHING JUST TERRIBLE FUNNY BECAUSE I WAS WATCHING ABBRACADABRA WITH MY SISTER AND I JUST SAID IT WAS EROTIC DANCE AND SHE ASKED ME BACK WHERE DID I LEARNED THAT HAHA.... COME ON LAH... PEOPLE LEARN FROM MANY THING....OK IT WAS STOP THERE AND CONTINUES WITH ME GOING TO CARE4 WITH HER AND SEARCH FOR ADD MATH BOOK BUT WAS NOT THERE SO WE ENDED UP BUYING "THING" .... AND THEN GO HOME .....

TODAY SPECIAL ITEM: MP3 LOL......

windy day

today is the day when i learned that someone that i care about is going far away from me step by step...
well i predict the day will come one day ....but i never thought it will come this fast...