HOLLOW

The title must be weird right.... but it is what I want to tell about...
Right now my heart or my soul is just like hollow...
Well hollow have empty hole at the heart space right
So that is what I feel right now.....
hurm... just that in this few days i feel there is a hole in my heart....
like i cant feel it was there well this is really real and this what happening now


so just this i havent update my blog for awhile so just this for now....

THING after ONE thing...

Well this 30 December I got Mas vs Sin tournament and tomorrow I got training for 3 days.

NJCC.... I got 5.5 and 7 placing well kinda good lalala
hurm... I ate lot in past few days so I need to make up with it....
so after this I need to diet more tightly....

LIFE LIVE (PENINDASAN) Oppression,Suppressed

Well as we can see there is a lot of "penindasan" in this world

"Human can't run from be a penindas or ditindas"

HURMM....all my memories come back and stay fresh.... its very a bad memories...
I don't really want to remember it but this thing that happen toward suju at GDA make me remember it....
All I can see is sadness inside them....
Just like DEJAVU I'm feel like watching my own self inside them and I practically know how they feel... It so much hurt until you can't even mutter a word because each word that come from your mouth is just feel like a lava .....

I really truly feel the hurt because I'm once felt it ... and it hurt a lot more than anybody could understand..... Imagine the effort you made in so many years to achieve it become worthless at once... that just break your heart into pieces and that heart of yours would never ever be attach back perfectly.... Nobody know the feel accept they have gone through it.....

my self at that time is so crumble and I cry for hours and the next day and the next days....
I never know that this thing could happen toward my "Heenim"

So I hope they stay strong with me and fight ours ways back and rise....

"Heroes rise, Heroes falls"
"Once again, WIN it all"
.....